the-vanity-project

chantelbrenna:

squidsqueen:

What makes me so happy about this is that she isn’t telling you you must love your body or that you are obligated to. She saying you have permission to. And that’s important, because there are a lot of reasons why people have trouble with self-love.  But the idea that you aren’t supposed to love your body, that you aren’t allowed to for whatever reason, needs to be crushed. If you can’t love you body right now, if your body causes you pain or disphoria or distress, you aren’t required to love it. But you are ALLOWED to. You are entitled to the chance to make peace with your body, if you ever reach a point where you are ready to. No one else should be trying to stop you.

Sometimes I see or read things, and I didn’t realize that I needed them until they are two GIFs of Nicki Minaj and some amazing commentary that come across my dash and I instantly burst in to tears and feel a weight lifted off my chest.

Time management is really hard

The codependent person in my head wants to have no plans so I can soak up every ounce of time with my wife. That voice in my head also tells me to compete with her other partners who have less going on than me. To blame them for their seemingly endless availability while I juggle life and a girlfriend and a demanding career. Sometimes I feel almost punished by the universe for being independent and well-rounded because when I want more than an overnight at a time, it feels impossible.

But I won’t hate them or myself. I will work with what I have, appreciate that I have people in my life I miss and love and make the best. Most of all, I won’t put the other parts of myself aside. I have to fight that instinct so hard right now.

Positive things Happy poly moments and bonding with a new metamour. Leaving tomorrow to spend 4 days working with genderqueer and trans kids and their families at a summer camp. Being lucky enough to be loved and missed and to miss people.